BY RUBEN PEREZ
There's that moment when you hit a wall: when you try to force creativity. It’s one of the most unnatural feelings known to creative man. When inspiration dissipates, where joy ceases. It makes me wonder if I should pause or if I should push through the creation process in that moment.
Should artistic expression always be joyful, or does joy get lost, or even martyred, under the name of hard work and fruitfulness?
For some, artistic expression is not just for the joy or the result, it is also the very way that we process everything that we think, feel, or experience. The inner being of our hearts and emotions dies or thrives on creating with or without inspiration. Seamlessly bringing our humanity and medium to an abrupt stop without it.
I can remember so many projects in times past that I started but never finished. Never reconnecting to the stem of inspiration that I had at the very beginning.
Yet there is something profound about the inner creative struggle. Wrestling with our ideas, emotions, concepts, and even sufferings brings power to the piece.
That in spending time in perseverance on our mediums, artistic expression becomes a way for us to discover who we are, who God is, and to discover the world we inhabit. Pushing past our uninspired creativity makes the creative process a pilgrimage to a T.
To me the creative process is never one-dimensional. It's never peacefully put together from idea to medium. There is always an under-theme of war and peace in artistic expression that begins to bleed into all of life. It's almost as if God is teaching me through my mediums.
Various projects and life questions stop and progress forward as they age creatively and spiritually. The struggle reminds me that I'm not the Grand Creator, that I am an "art piece" that He is working on as He walks me through my own creative process.
Creative expression is not just a matter of joy or result as I once considered it. It is something far more intimate. Creative expression is a matter of joy and struggle - a matter of war and peace. Creative expression is more importantly for our sanctification. In this journey of creative expression we will discover both joy and struggle, and in both we will discover they are both blessings. We will discover the beauty in the sanctifying gift of creativity.